Alone

It is funny how on a holiday you can feel so alone. Most of us come home each night, and watch TV till we go to bed. We interact rarely with the ones we claim to love, and stare at the walls of a pale grey cubicle all day. It never ceases to amaze me that we can be constantly surrounded by things and people, and yet be so isolated. Communication is the one thing that all of us are looking for, but none of us seem to find. The things we do by thier very nature drive us away from one another, but we don't change. How is it we can be so far away from what life was really meant to be.

Family

Today as I was walking along, there was a furious wind blowing. It had been snowing early in the day, and the wind was wintery, and chill. The leaves on the ground were crisp, with autumn colours, and the day was nostalgic. As I walked along, I thought about all the wonderful things in my life. Children who love me, a wife who loves me as well. Sometimes the things in life that seem to be just every day occourances are really what gives us the greatest sence of being and belonging. Oftentimes, it is such a part of our lives, if we are not careful we will overlook it all together.

Hobbiton

Well, it’s been a week or so since I last posted. Things seem to be going pretty well. Despite all of the conflicts I have had lobbed at me over the previous week, life seems to continue as normal. I like the passage in the Lord of the Rings, referring to the comings and goings in Hobbiton. And how, in Hobbiton change comes very slowly if even at all. Sometimes it is easy to forget what a good thing, stability it.
“Do not be given to change” –Solomon
We sometimes long for change, only because we do not know how good we already have it.
“The eyes of the fool are on the ends of the earth” -Solomon

Bob

It seems I've been so busy lately. I feel like most of the time life just goes by so quickly, I only need to blink to miss it. It is thursday night, I have tommorrow off, and I am listening to Bob Dylan, "Slow Train Comming" at 11 at night. Its kind of nostalgic in a way. I'm drinking french roast coffee (Starbucks) and sitting at the computer. Makes me feel like I'm in college all over again. Those were the days, you thought you had the world at your disposal, and that every tree was ripe with fruit for the picking. Ah, but then there is real life, where you arive at the same job day after day, push your way back to your cube, and stare at the padded walls amidst fufilling your work priorities. It seems strange that as children we long for the freedom to make our own descisions, move out on our own, take the world by the horns. Only to find that we are never more free than as a child. Perhaps this is why Jesus said, "unless you become like a child, you will not enter the kindom of heaven."

Appreciated

Sometimes it is good to know you are appreciated.
  So many times we forget the things that are important to us until they are gone. How many of us woke up this morning and thanked God for the shower we were able to take, or for having running water in the facet. Take them away, and I would bet we will notice. That is the way of things, we seem to take things for granted until we realize that they are gone, and we have ultimately missed the boat that carried them away.

        

Today

Wondering what to do,
I had a guy offer me a job recently, this weekend in fact. I love all the benefits of my job. And the relaxed schedule. I sometime would like a little enjoyable challenges though. Doing something creative. Who knows. I mostly just want to be sure that I am doing what God wants me to.